Give me a guidance

why..
Ya Allah, please give me a guidance
dont let me being forgetful
for knowing what purpose i've been created
please let me behave
please let me act
please let me interact
please let me
let me live for being grateful

sometimes why am i
don't feel nothing fo being sinful
even though in my heart
im screaming
screaming for your kindness
help me to get stronger
for the sake of ad deen

please give me the strength
i want to live without sorrow